What do you say?

You can't make someone love you, and you can't help who you fall in love with. But when you fall out of love, its best to deal with the pain and anger now, rather than wait for it to get better. Sorry to report this but it never will.

You can try turning to God, and you can try counseling, but no matter what you try it will still be a loveless relationship. I hate to see children in the mix of all the chaos. It breaks my heart that the child will have to endure this stress and anxiety yet again because of your choices. But I guess since I have no children I shouldn't say these things. I have great hopes for my future children I think every woman does but I truly believe if I was in the same situation I would have been gone years ago. 

 In the end all I can do is be so grateful for the love that I have from my husband and the family and friends that surround me and supported me through this difficult and stressful week. Without you, man, this would have been terrible.

I guess in some ways its better this way. I can SWITCH my schedule BACK. (Yes, I changed my schedule to accommodate for your problems.) I think I have learnt my lesson here though. Always go with your gut, I shouldn't have taken the time or made the effort to help until I saw 100% of effort in the other party. I can't say I am done or washed my hands of this matter, (because they are family) but I can say I will never do it again. They are family, not much I can do about that but at least I can say I helped in this situation. I promise my husband that I will never, ever cheat or lie to him about another relationship. The lies can only manifest and once they are so big its difficult to forgive. And even if they are EVER forgiven they are NEVER FORGOTTEN.

But as I sit here and type why do I feel such sadness. I am actually crying over this. *shaking my head* Why?

I guess my sadness comes from the pain he must  be feeling, how could she do that to someone who you say you love. I could never do that to Josh. I know where I would stand if the tables were turned and I would not get another chance. I know his decisions are based upon their child but serious this can only drag it out. He has already stated that he can never trust her, and that he sees she doesn't know herself. He says he understands you cannot love another human being without loving yourself and caring about your significant other. But how can you allow someone back into your life and your CHILDs life after they have done and said such hurtful things?

I guess that is the million dollar question.