Apparently our baby girl is taking her sweet time just like her Daddy always does. We are 3 days from our due date. I figured she would be in our arms by now as many contractions I have had in the past weeks. But apparently that was just preparing my cervix for what's to come later.
At our 39 week appointment, our midwife told us I was 80% effaced and 2 cm dilated. Still my cervix is anterior and Kendall's head is still really low if not lower than last weeks. I measured 37 weeks on my belly- this has been the same since 37 weeks. She has dropped but contractions don't stay steady enough. I had some AWESOMELY strong contractions the day of our appointment they stayed consistent until we walked into the birth center. I thought for sure we would have a baby soon. NOPE.
She likes to pull my leg. Just like last night. I was standing in front of Josh and my eyes bulged--- "Did my water just start leaking?" My underwear was soaked! I had just peed so I knew it wasn't pee. Go to bathroom check it out peed again. Yeah, that is definitively not what it felt like. Call Midwife, put a pad on if you soak it in an hour call back. Well, Of course I didn't soak it. And I must say there is a REASON I haven't wore a pad in 10 years. Yuck! Anyways, maybe its a super slow leak? I don't know I guess it could have been cervical fluid. Again I got really excited. But no drive to Statesville. :(
Will it ever happen naturally? I am scared I will end up with the EXACT opposite of what I want. I don't want an induction but I can't be pregnant FOREVER! I am scared that an induction will lead to a Cesarean. Again, I do not want that. But she can't stay inside forever. We have tried everything under the book for natural induction. Reflexology, pineapple, sex, Primrose Oil for my cervix (which that worked), and I have walked. Last weekend we actually went to Farmington to see if we could coax her out with drag racing and rumbling. Yeah obviously that didn't work. haha. She only jumps or gets startled at the Junior dragsters when they pass by really closely. I was really surprised the other cars didn't startle her. Anyways, we have tried everything. Now we have given up. She will come when she comes. There isn't ANYTHING anyone can do to change it.
I was thinking some babies don't like to come into the world if mom doesn't feel ready. But now the glider is finished, her room is finished, we have preemie, newborn and size 1 sposies, and a large amount of cloth diapers, we have plenty of wipes, her Daddy and her Papa put both car seats in the the truck and car. Everything is packed for her and I and Josh. Everything is washed and ready for her. REALLY what is this kid waiting on???
Last week I cleaned pretty heavily on the house but now I have to muster up the energy to do it again. UGH! I see nap time in the future today.
Also, before I forget, Sassy and Ivan have been acting really strange. Sassy, will sit in front of me and whine and actually will STOP eating to follow me into the bathroom. She has to lay with me wherever I am. Today, Ivan has started with whining thing too. They both follow me very closely room to room. Kinda dread cleaning with them like this. I have heard dogs know when something is going on inside of us. Maybe they are aware this baby wants out soon? I can hope!!!
Friday, December 9, 2011
Thursday, December 1, 2011
At 38 weeks...
For some reason I believed I was going to have Kendall by now... I thought she was going to make her grand appearance the weekend after Thanksgiving. I had PLENTY of strong contractions but it wasn't strong enough to carry over to active labor. :(
Then the contractions STOPPED and Kendall's movement SLOWED way down. I thought "Ohhhhhh, maybe this is the sign."
NOPE!!!
At my 37 weeks (the week of Thanksgiving) Nicole my midwife saw me. I had been debating on getting checked for effacement and dilation I ended up getting checked and I was 60% effaced and 1 finger but a loose finger or 1.5 cm dilated with a mushy cervix that is already anterior. All great signs. I left very positive and hopeful.
At my 38 week check up I saw Nicole again. And because of the contractions that kept me up all night I decided to get checked again and debated for awhile about her sweeping my membranes. I decided to have them swept anyways and she said I was STILL 60% effaced and 2 cm dilated but SUPER mushy and still anterior. Left feeling pretty shitty about my body. Feeling like it let me down. I thought I had made progress but NO> No progress made here. :( When you get your membranes swept if you aren't ready they won't help but if you ARE ready it usually starts in 24 hours. Needless to say it is now Thursday night and my membranes were swept on Monday. It didn't help. We have tried everything!!! Bumpy roads, Sex, talking to Kendall reassuring her life is pleasant in the real world etc. Nothing works.
I really wanted to have her 3 weeks before Christmas to keep from having difficult birthdays. Or family buying one gift for Christmas and not for her birthday plus Birthday sleepovers will be harder etc. But it seems it already is beginning. She has been forgotten already for Christmas by some. :( Josh and I aren't putting a tree up this year because with having a baby so CLOSE to Christmas it will be more of a hassle to get it all out and more than likely I won't have the time to put it all up until February because of the baby. We still have bought Kendall some Stocking stuffers and we have spent lots of money on new things we have already taken out of packages and gotten ready for her birth. But we haven't forgotten her. Santa will come see her and leave her a stocking here and at my mom and dads house. ;) My mom and dad has gotten her so many toys for her first year it isn't funny! The kid isn't going to know how to open gifts and some probably won't be wrapped but I can tell you she has already racked up at her first Christmas from Nana and Papa. :)
We are looking forward to her birth, but not the stress of it all. Deciding when people get called and who can be where and who we don't want near us and what if they show up. I have decided today that I don't care anymore. I want to have my baby in peace and quiet and have her naturally without pain medicine unless I really want it. I don't want to be pressured into feeling bad because someone wants in the room to see the birth or to be close to us while we are laboring. I have made my mind up and Josh and I have a birth plan in place like I spoken about before. The midwife will stick with it and I have a feeling someone will get mad at me. And I don't give a flip about it. I am done stressing about it. I think for me to STOP worrying about this part of the birth will help with Kendall being born sooner. So I am letting go of it now. Expect me to speak my mind from now on. No keeping it back. Call me the evil pregnant bitch or evil birthing bitch I just want her birth to be stress free and especially after her birth while we are at home to be stress free. It probably ISN'T going to happen but we shall see.
This is going to be such a memorable Christmas and new year I cannot wait to meet this precious life growing inside of me!
Then the contractions STOPPED and Kendall's movement SLOWED way down. I thought "Ohhhhhh, maybe this is the sign."
NOPE!!!
At my 37 weeks (the week of Thanksgiving) Nicole my midwife saw me. I had been debating on getting checked for effacement and dilation I ended up getting checked and I was 60% effaced and 1 finger but a loose finger or 1.5 cm dilated with a mushy cervix that is already anterior. All great signs. I left very positive and hopeful.
At my 38 week check up I saw Nicole again. And because of the contractions that kept me up all night I decided to get checked again and debated for awhile about her sweeping my membranes. I decided to have them swept anyways and she said I was STILL 60% effaced and 2 cm dilated but SUPER mushy and still anterior. Left feeling pretty shitty about my body. Feeling like it let me down. I thought I had made progress but NO> No progress made here. :( When you get your membranes swept if you aren't ready they won't help but if you ARE ready it usually starts in 24 hours. Needless to say it is now Thursday night and my membranes were swept on Monday. It didn't help. We have tried everything!!! Bumpy roads, Sex, talking to Kendall reassuring her life is pleasant in the real world etc. Nothing works.
I really wanted to have her 3 weeks before Christmas to keep from having difficult birthdays. Or family buying one gift for Christmas and not for her birthday plus Birthday sleepovers will be harder etc. But it seems it already is beginning. She has been forgotten already for Christmas by some. :( Josh and I aren't putting a tree up this year because with having a baby so CLOSE to Christmas it will be more of a hassle to get it all out and more than likely I won't have the time to put it all up until February because of the baby. We still have bought Kendall some Stocking stuffers and we have spent lots of money on new things we have already taken out of packages and gotten ready for her birth. But we haven't forgotten her. Santa will come see her and leave her a stocking here and at my mom and dads house. ;) My mom and dad has gotten her so many toys for her first year it isn't funny! The kid isn't going to know how to open gifts and some probably won't be wrapped but I can tell you she has already racked up at her first Christmas from Nana and Papa. :)
We are looking forward to her birth, but not the stress of it all. Deciding when people get called and who can be where and who we don't want near us and what if they show up. I have decided today that I don't care anymore. I want to have my baby in peace and quiet and have her naturally without pain medicine unless I really want it. I don't want to be pressured into feeling bad because someone wants in the room to see the birth or to be close to us while we are laboring. I have made my mind up and Josh and I have a birth plan in place like I spoken about before. The midwife will stick with it and I have a feeling someone will get mad at me. And I don't give a flip about it. I am done stressing about it. I think for me to STOP worrying about this part of the birth will help with Kendall being born sooner. So I am letting go of it now. Expect me to speak my mind from now on. No keeping it back. Call me the evil pregnant bitch or evil birthing bitch I just want her birth to be stress free and especially after her birth while we are at home to be stress free. It probably ISN'T going to happen but we shall see.
This is going to be such a memorable Christmas and new year I cannot wait to meet this precious life growing inside of me!
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
35 Weeks...
Oh yeah it has been forever since I have written a blog entry. But a lot has happened and I have been so BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!! Between work and getting the house ready for Kendall and cleaning for the Baby shower... Not to mention Childbirth classes or changing doctors/midwives.
Overall, life has been great. All the stress lately has been getting to me though. I have been well to put it nicely a bitch. But looking at all that I have dealt with I guess it is understandable.
Her room is finished minus a few things to hang on the wall and some organizing. The closet is packed full and we have just a few things left to buy. I had a WONDERFUL time at BOTH of my showers and got so many things and we are so thankful to have family and friends that love us and love Kendall already! :)
We absolutely adore this new office we are going to. Everyone shares our views and understands us. We are driving to Mooresville to see Dr Roque and CNM- Nicole and Marcia. The midwives will most likely be the ones who deliver Kendall and that is simply awesome! I get just what I wanted and so does my family. I get the midwife- Birth Center style birth and they get the security of having the Doctor right behind them with knowledge of OR in worst case scenario. It is so nice to go into this place and laugh and joke and not really feel like you are in a doctors office. I love each and every one of the nurses and staff at this new place and I have only been going since right after 28 weeks. We go again at 37 weeks and then we start going once a week.
My feet have begun to swell and pit on a regular basis now. The midwife wants my feet up after 2 hours of standing or working. They are not worried about it since protein is not showing up in my urine and my blood pressure has remained normal. It has gotten so much harder to do massages now as well. It isn't hard because of the belly I have learned to work around that now but it is hard to actually do them. A hot Stone Massage KILLS me now. It is so dang on hot in there even with a fan, I sweat my butt off. But I not only get hot during a Hot Stone massage anymore either its almost every massage I am sweating bullets. I think it is great exercise for me though. I have to relax through 50 minutes and of course bend my knees and continually think of my body mechanics. I am working through it and hopefully I can continue to work until her arrival.
I am having a hard time letting myself accept that people want to help. I want to do all these things by myself. I figure if I can't do them NOW while I am pregnant how can I adjust to doing them while having a baby? I figure that is a logical statement and logical reasoning. But I know how my brain works. If someone does something for me I get out of the habit of doing it myself and it that much harder for me to adjust back to doing it. Josh understands he will have help more around the house until I get my breastfeeding down pat and get back to a normal routine. He also understands he will have to handle the heat since we heat with wood. He hasn't yet let me lift a finger to bring wood in or start a fire or keep a fire going. I understand it will be difficult to adjust in the first days we are home and I am not insisting on No One coming over to help. I will be grateful for any help and I will just have to get over my OCD about where my dishes go, where my food goes, and how my clothes are folded etc.
Since we are birthing so far away I know everyone is going to want to meet Our Precious baby Kendall. Coming to meet her at the hospital may not be feasible for most people. We are welcoming anyone wanting to meet her to come after we announce we are home. But please understand the house could be a wreck and I do plan on exclusively breastfeeding so if it makes you uncomfortable you might want to wait until she isn't feeding so often and don't expect ME to go to a different room because it disgusts you. Please come with a positive attitude! I don't want to hear negative stories about breastfeeding or how your baby didn't sleep for days etc. Kendall will be her own little person and we will deal with it as it comes.
We had the BEST childbirth educator I could ask for-Vicki Moses. She was extraordinary! Josh and I feel so prepared (as we can be) and we feel ready for her arrival. She taught Josh and I many different techniques to help me and him during labor and the birth process. I really think if we didn't have her we would have totally freaked out when I began having contractions or my water broke. Now we both feel like we can handle it all pretty calmly and collectively.
So now that we are 35 weeks along we are patiently awaiting 37 weeks to 40 weeks and looking forward to meeting our precious daughter.(It seems to be flying along too!) I can't wait to hold her and love her. Midwife says the head is REALLY low and she can't move her head any more. I am so anxious to compare her face and body with Josh and I's to see who she resembles most. I am anxious for our dogs to meet her too! I just can't wait!
Overall, life has been great. All the stress lately has been getting to me though. I have been well to put it nicely a bitch. But looking at all that I have dealt with I guess it is understandable.
Her room is finished minus a few things to hang on the wall and some organizing. The closet is packed full and we have just a few things left to buy. I had a WONDERFUL time at BOTH of my showers and got so many things and we are so thankful to have family and friends that love us and love Kendall already! :)
We absolutely adore this new office we are going to. Everyone shares our views and understands us. We are driving to Mooresville to see Dr Roque and CNM- Nicole and Marcia. The midwives will most likely be the ones who deliver Kendall and that is simply awesome! I get just what I wanted and so does my family. I get the midwife- Birth Center style birth and they get the security of having the Doctor right behind them with knowledge of OR in worst case scenario. It is so nice to go into this place and laugh and joke and not really feel like you are in a doctors office. I love each and every one of the nurses and staff at this new place and I have only been going since right after 28 weeks. We go again at 37 weeks and then we start going once a week.
My feet have begun to swell and pit on a regular basis now. The midwife wants my feet up after 2 hours of standing or working. They are not worried about it since protein is not showing up in my urine and my blood pressure has remained normal. It has gotten so much harder to do massages now as well. It isn't hard because of the belly I have learned to work around that now but it is hard to actually do them. A hot Stone Massage KILLS me now. It is so dang on hot in there even with a fan, I sweat my butt off. But I not only get hot during a Hot Stone massage anymore either its almost every massage I am sweating bullets. I think it is great exercise for me though. I have to relax through 50 minutes and of course bend my knees and continually think of my body mechanics. I am working through it and hopefully I can continue to work until her arrival.
I am having a hard time letting myself accept that people want to help. I want to do all these things by myself. I figure if I can't do them NOW while I am pregnant how can I adjust to doing them while having a baby? I figure that is a logical statement and logical reasoning. But I know how my brain works. If someone does something for me I get out of the habit of doing it myself and it that much harder for me to adjust back to doing it. Josh understands he will have help more around the house until I get my breastfeeding down pat and get back to a normal routine. He also understands he will have to handle the heat since we heat with wood. He hasn't yet let me lift a finger to bring wood in or start a fire or keep a fire going. I understand it will be difficult to adjust in the first days we are home and I am not insisting on No One coming over to help. I will be grateful for any help and I will just have to get over my OCD about where my dishes go, where my food goes, and how my clothes are folded etc.
Since we are birthing so far away I know everyone is going to want to meet Our Precious baby Kendall. Coming to meet her at the hospital may not be feasible for most people. We are welcoming anyone wanting to meet her to come after we announce we are home. But please understand the house could be a wreck and I do plan on exclusively breastfeeding so if it makes you uncomfortable you might want to wait until she isn't feeding so often and don't expect ME to go to a different room because it disgusts you. Please come with a positive attitude! I don't want to hear negative stories about breastfeeding or how your baby didn't sleep for days etc. Kendall will be her own little person and we will deal with it as it comes.
We had the BEST childbirth educator I could ask for-Vicki Moses. She was extraordinary! Josh and I feel so prepared (as we can be) and we feel ready for her arrival. She taught Josh and I many different techniques to help me and him during labor and the birth process. I really think if we didn't have her we would have totally freaked out when I began having contractions or my water broke. Now we both feel like we can handle it all pretty calmly and collectively.
So now that we are 35 weeks along we are patiently awaiting 37 weeks to 40 weeks and looking forward to meeting our precious daughter.(It seems to be flying along too!) I can't wait to hold her and love her. Midwife says the head is REALLY low and she can't move her head any more. I am so anxious to compare her face and body with Josh and I's to see who she resembles most. I am anxious for our dogs to meet her too! I just can't wait!
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Difference a year makes.
Ok, some of you out there know that I have questioned myself for becoming a massage therapist. I got pretty down on myself last year at this time because I wasn't making any money. I couldn't afford to keep my car, or the insurance, and I have taken loan after loan from my parents. I hate taking ANY loans but I feel horrible for taking it from my parents. Anyway, Josh and I were having hard times last year at this time trying to make ends meet. We dropped all unnecessary bills like our Droids and that gave us the freedom to drop $100 off our Verizon bill! We cut the Dish Network off, and really started watching our power and water use. Let me tell you that really helped but nothing like finding the perfect place to work. Josh and I argued over how I SHOULD have finished nursing school. I had actually made up my mind about going back to school. I studied hard for the TEAS test but failed it miserably we had a ton of drama going on that week and the night before the big test I had to feed not only Josh and I but an additional family. I am glad I was able to help them out however my test results proved it wasn't beneficial for the TEAS. I got so bummed out and depressed with myself. I felt worthless. I couldn't support my family and neither could Josh... we both were Aggravated but we made it through it and Josh's business picked up. (thank God) And in late March I had issues at Choice and quit. Which Josh wanted me to anyways. It made life difficult and then SURPRISE after a little tinkle on a stick with 2 pink lines we have more to think about... I don't have a job!!! And we are pregnant.
Job application after job application, driving around checking on them they all say apply online and wait. UGH! I hate hearing that. However, In June, I finally saw an ad for a massage therapist position, Josh and I both agreed it was worth a shot. The day after my birthday I did my practical massage on Julia and she said I was hired! What a relief. I drove to Greensboro every week slowly starting just on Fridays then adding Thursdays and Saturdays. I received a gas check for coming down there and my commission check. Although, the drive sucked at least I was making money.
Fast forward, September 16th Hand and Stone Massage and Facial Spa opened its doors in Winston. My location! I was so excited but understood it could be slow but I had three massages in the first day and that Saturday I had 5.5 hours of massage WITH requests! Oh how happy I was. Now the first check is coming up and I have actually been really busy at this location. I will have a great paycheck; one that makes ANY other place I have worked (even for myself) look bad. I am stoked. When you add in the tips it gets even better. Finally, we are on a road to which the grass is greener on the other side. We will make it. And this baby will have what it needs. I am over the moon with excitement and giddyness. A job, a job that I wanted, one that I have skills at doing one I went to school for and EARNED! I truly couldn't be happier. I am going to attempt to work as long as I can until Kendall makes her appearance or I have to go on bed rest. I hope my dreams will continue coming true. Soon I will have a precious baby girl named Kendall by my side and I will have the added joy of raising her but another part of me wants more on the business side as well.
I am hoping to be thought of for lead therapist in Winston. I know having the baby at this time could make it more difficult in my selection however, I feel I am up for it. I know I have done managerial work before and it would be even better to do it massage therapist style especially for this company! I am working my tail off trying to prove myself worthy. Work is steady and it is unbelievable how positive and upbeat I am about coming to work. I can only imagine more steady dependable income from here. This establishment KNOWS how to run a business. They understand this is how we make our living and they work hard at helping us achieve our dreams. All they ask is for is that you keep it drama free and follow Hand and Stone protocol. They take care of ALL The advertising and so far they have done a FABULOUS job!!! My life has done a complete turn around from how it was last year and I am loving it.
With a baby on the way and new job with great opportunities ahead of me, I would have to be crazy not to be excited and giddy about what lies ahead for next year!
Job application after job application, driving around checking on them they all say apply online and wait. UGH! I hate hearing that. However, In June, I finally saw an ad for a massage therapist position, Josh and I both agreed it was worth a shot. The day after my birthday I did my practical massage on Julia and she said I was hired! What a relief. I drove to Greensboro every week slowly starting just on Fridays then adding Thursdays and Saturdays. I received a gas check for coming down there and my commission check. Although, the drive sucked at least I was making money.
Fast forward, September 16th Hand and Stone Massage and Facial Spa opened its doors in Winston. My location! I was so excited but understood it could be slow but I had three massages in the first day and that Saturday I had 5.5 hours of massage WITH requests! Oh how happy I was. Now the first check is coming up and I have actually been really busy at this location. I will have a great paycheck; one that makes ANY other place I have worked (even for myself) look bad. I am stoked. When you add in the tips it gets even better. Finally, we are on a road to which the grass is greener on the other side. We will make it. And this baby will have what it needs. I am over the moon with excitement and giddyness. A job, a job that I wanted, one that I have skills at doing one I went to school for and EARNED! I truly couldn't be happier. I am going to attempt to work as long as I can until Kendall makes her appearance or I have to go on bed rest. I hope my dreams will continue coming true. Soon I will have a precious baby girl named Kendall by my side and I will have the added joy of raising her but another part of me wants more on the business side as well.
I am hoping to be thought of for lead therapist in Winston. I know having the baby at this time could make it more difficult in my selection however, I feel I am up for it. I know I have done managerial work before and it would be even better to do it massage therapist style especially for this company! I am working my tail off trying to prove myself worthy. Work is steady and it is unbelievable how positive and upbeat I am about coming to work. I can only imagine more steady dependable income from here. This establishment KNOWS how to run a business. They understand this is how we make our living and they work hard at helping us achieve our dreams. All they ask is for is that you keep it drama free and follow Hand and Stone protocol. They take care of ALL The advertising and so far they have done a FABULOUS job!!! My life has done a complete turn around from how it was last year and I am loving it.
With a baby on the way and new job with great opportunities ahead of me, I would have to be crazy not to be excited and giddy about what lies ahead for next year!
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
At 28 weeks...
... Josh and I have decided to change OB's. We went to the hospital tour at High Point Regional on the 18th and were blown away. I really want to labor freely, free from IV's and the fetal Monitoring. They make a wireless option however we asked the nurses station how many they had and they have ONE! All the women in our tour group were wowed by this and one pregnant mom said "I guess we will have to fight for it huh". The is NO shower or tub in the birthing suite at all and it is very small. There also is no rocking chair. You only stay in the birthing suite about 2-3 hours after the birth and then you are moved to the postpartum room which is MUCH smaller than most kids bedrooms. It is makes Forsyth's postpartum room look like a birthing suite. They also said when the mother is in the process of changing rooms dad goes with baby to the admissions nursery. Where they end up staying for 2 hours. They are bathed here and stuck and prodded and the tour guide made it out like we weren't even asked about the Hep B vaccination it was mandatory I found out later they do give the option. However, it is still mandatory for baby to leave mom for 2 hours. So after the baby goes to the admitting nursery they are then cleared (if all looks well with baby) to go to the regular nursery. HPR has 3 different nurseries. So in all the baby is moved 3 times and mom is moved twice. Because of cramped space laboring freely would be very tough.
As most of you know I have very high standards for Kendall's birth. LOL! Probably too high and most of my birthing dreams won't happen but going to HPR pretty much throws everything Josh and I both want OUT THE WINDOW! We really wanted a water birth or at least help from water. We want to have the option to opt out of shots until her immune system can handle them. We want Kendall to be with us unless there is a medical emergency with her. I would like to stay in the same room and not be moved but I understand if another birth is awaiting our room. I would like to be able to move freely during birth and not be tied down to the bed as I said before with IV's and the fetal monitor. SOOOOOOOooooo.....
We looked into a birth center in Mooresville/Statesville and they are willing to accept us. They have only been open since August 1st so Medicaid doesn't cover us having the birth at the Center however, we can go to the hospital down there and have a Center Style Birth. They have 8 Birthing suites all 8 have Jacuzzi's to ease labor. The baby is delivered and placed upon moms belly wiped clean and mom and baby bond before placenta comes out after that the cord is cut. They only put mom on Fetal Monitor on at the beginning and if baby is showing problems and if no problems exist then the nurse will monitor with Doppler every 30 minutes or so. Therefore, you are able to labor in jacuzzi, rocking chair, birthing ball, birthing stool, or on all fours on bed etc. the discourage the use of laying in bed. Mom and dad are welcome to decline bathing/Vit K/Eye Ointment/and Hep B Vaccination. Of course doctor will talk with you however politely decline and no more questions are asked or pushed.
The birth center will also allow Josh and I to come down to labor at the birth center so we do not have to spend the entire labor at the hospital! There are 2 Certified Nurse Midwives and one doctor. Doctor Susan Roque. I have talked around and found out Dr Dorn isn't so gentle with tissues if you know what I mean and he has more tears than Dr Roque. Dr Roque does more massage and warming up the peritoneal area to help ease tearing. Another point for Dr Roque. Also it helps she is a woman.
So they asked we go to Dr Dorn's office for our regular appointment next week. We will have our glucose test done and as we leave we ask for our Record Request to be faxed to Dr Roque. We will see her 3 weeks later on October 11th. I am so glad we found out before we had to endure our first childs birth there at HPR. And for those who live in Surry County we also had looked into Elkin Hospital however, they refused to allow us off the fetal monitor or allowing us to have a Hep-Lock.
We are really excited now about our birth of our first baby since we know it will probably more of what we pictured and dreamed. We have hired a childbirth educator that has worked with many home birth mom and dads and she will be coming to our house to teach us how to labor naturally without medical intervention or medicine starting October 17th. It is so crazy to think that in 13-14 weeks it will be Christmas and I will be toting a precious baby girl in my arms! I think it just might be the best Christmas of my life!!! :) 28 weeks down 12 more to go!!!
As most of you know I have very high standards for Kendall's birth. LOL! Probably too high and most of my birthing dreams won't happen but going to HPR pretty much throws everything Josh and I both want OUT THE WINDOW! We really wanted a water birth or at least help from water. We want to have the option to opt out of shots until her immune system can handle them. We want Kendall to be with us unless there is a medical emergency with her. I would like to stay in the same room and not be moved but I understand if another birth is awaiting our room. I would like to be able to move freely during birth and not be tied down to the bed as I said before with IV's and the fetal monitor. SOOOOOOOooooo.....
We looked into a birth center in Mooresville/Statesville and they are willing to accept us. They have only been open since August 1st so Medicaid doesn't cover us having the birth at the Center however, we can go to the hospital down there and have a Center Style Birth. They have 8 Birthing suites all 8 have Jacuzzi's to ease labor. The baby is delivered and placed upon moms belly wiped clean and mom and baby bond before placenta comes out after that the cord is cut. They only put mom on Fetal Monitor on at the beginning and if baby is showing problems and if no problems exist then the nurse will monitor with Doppler every 30 minutes or so. Therefore, you are able to labor in jacuzzi, rocking chair, birthing ball, birthing stool, or on all fours on bed etc. the discourage the use of laying in bed. Mom and dad are welcome to decline bathing/Vit K/Eye Ointment/and Hep B Vaccination. Of course doctor will talk with you however politely decline and no more questions are asked or pushed.
The birth center will also allow Josh and I to come down to labor at the birth center so we do not have to spend the entire labor at the hospital! There are 2 Certified Nurse Midwives and one doctor. Doctor Susan Roque. I have talked around and found out Dr Dorn isn't so gentle with tissues if you know what I mean and he has more tears than Dr Roque. Dr Roque does more massage and warming up the peritoneal area to help ease tearing. Another point for Dr Roque. Also it helps she is a woman.
So they asked we go to Dr Dorn's office for our regular appointment next week. We will have our glucose test done and as we leave we ask for our Record Request to be faxed to Dr Roque. We will see her 3 weeks later on October 11th. I am so glad we found out before we had to endure our first childs birth there at HPR. And for those who live in Surry County we also had looked into Elkin Hospital however, they refused to allow us off the fetal monitor or allowing us to have a Hep-Lock.
We are really excited now about our birth of our first baby since we know it will probably more of what we pictured and dreamed. We have hired a childbirth educator that has worked with many home birth mom and dads and she will be coming to our house to teach us how to labor naturally without medical intervention or medicine starting October 17th. It is so crazy to think that in 13-14 weeks it will be Christmas and I will be toting a precious baby girl in my arms! I think it just might be the best Christmas of my life!!! :) 28 weeks down 12 more to go!!!
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Positive Birth Affirmations...
It is important for family and friends of mine to realize every birth is different. Every person is different therefore every woman's body is different and every newborn entering the world is different. So we have to expect their birth to be different. Everyone wants a different birth an easy birth. If a mother-to-be wants a stress free and drug-free birth everyone should support them and not tell them all the bad things that could or will happen during the birth. It is all about good Birth Affirmations. If the mother has a great support system from friends and family her birth will be enjoyable and her precious baby will be born just the way she envisioned.
I invite you to take a look at the clicky link above about "Birth Affirmations" and I encourage you to continue to encourage me. I want a birth that is easy and carefree and your words can encourage me.
I don't wish to hear horror stories anymore or hear the fact you don't believe I can accomplish the birth I want. I have read PLENTY of stories and heard PLENTY of birth stories. I don't have to hear how your child was born and how terrible your pain was or how great the Epidural is and how I WILL change my mind about it. Pain is something we all view differently in other words what hurts you might not hurt to me. Just the same as you and I have different taste buds we have different pain receptors. While I may feel pain during childbirth I may not feel the amount of pain you did. I might be lucky enough to feel more pressure than pain. It is all in how your support system supports the mother. Therefore, my family should understand if I feel like I need time alone or quietness in the room or etc. that I am not trying to hurt anyone's feelings. I might end up needing my mother more than Josh? Everyone should remain flexible and understanding. And come to the birth of Kendall understanding they may not "see" her enter the world. Who knows what I will need but I am in no way trying to hurt anyone's feelings. But I do promise to let everyone see her and hold her and caress her shortly after her arrival.
I want everyone that intends to be present for the birth of Kendall to be aware of my wishes and my hopes for her birth and to not feel offended or hurt by what I may say or do. You might agree today but please remember my plea I make today. Please support me and Josh and encourage a easy and carefree birth. Give us Positive Birth Affirmations especially the closer to the due date.
Below I am posting my "List" this is a list I will be giving Dr Dorn and Hospital Staff. And I believe anyone that plans to be present at the birth and afterward should know all my wishes because SOME could apply to you and you may be able to help clarify for the hospital staff if something may present itself.
I invite you to take a look at the clicky link above about "Birth Affirmations" and I encourage you to continue to encourage me. I want a birth that is easy and carefree and your words can encourage me.
I don't wish to hear horror stories anymore or hear the fact you don't believe I can accomplish the birth I want. I have read PLENTY of stories and heard PLENTY of birth stories. I don't have to hear how your child was born and how terrible your pain was or how great the Epidural is and how I WILL change my mind about it. Pain is something we all view differently in other words what hurts you might not hurt to me. Just the same as you and I have different taste buds we have different pain receptors. While I may feel pain during childbirth I may not feel the amount of pain you did. I might be lucky enough to feel more pressure than pain. It is all in how your support system supports the mother. Therefore, my family should understand if I feel like I need time alone or quietness in the room or etc. that I am not trying to hurt anyone's feelings. I might end up needing my mother more than Josh? Everyone should remain flexible and understanding. And come to the birth of Kendall understanding they may not "see" her enter the world. Who knows what I will need but I am in no way trying to hurt anyone's feelings. But I do promise to let everyone see her and hold her and caress her shortly after her arrival.
I want everyone that intends to be present for the birth of Kendall to be aware of my wishes and my hopes for her birth and to not feel offended or hurt by what I may say or do. You might agree today but please remember my plea I make today. Please support me and Josh and encourage a easy and carefree birth. Give us Positive Birth Affirmations especially the closer to the due date.
Below I am posting my "List" this is a list I will be giving Dr Dorn and Hospital Staff. And I believe anyone that plans to be present at the birth and afterward should know all my wishes because SOME could apply to you and you may be able to help clarify for the hospital staff if something may present itself.
- Request Hep-Lock
- Request Wireless Fetal Monitor with no external or internal monitoring
- Request NO Epidural, Stadol or Demerol
- Request NO pitocin
- Unless emergency, Delayed Cord Clamping
- Skin to skin contact immediately after birth
- Request Apgar Test to be completed on my chest, unless emergency baby isn't to be taken away from me for any measurements etc.
- Breastfeeding takes priority over ANY pictures
- Even if born Pre-maturely ONLY breast milk is to be given
- Request Delayed Bathing- If blood is present it may be wiped away
- Request Delayed Eye Ointment
- Request Rooming in unless medical Emergency
- No Hep B vaccination UNLESS baby MUST be taken to NICU
- If Cesarean Section is the ABSOLUTELY only option and baby is not in fetal distress skin to skin contact is REQUIRED after birth and breast milk should be encouraged as soon as possible.
Some of the things on the list may upset you but I assume if you want to attend the birth then you respect my decisions and if not I do not expect you to attend the birth of Kendall. I have good reasoning for every one of the things mentioned above.
I hope I have not offended anyone if so I am very sorry but this is something Josh and I have spoken about for months I figure it is a great time to post since Kendall's Birth is just a few weeks away. It will be here before we know it. I hope you respect our decisions and hopes for Kendall's Birth.
Here is a photo of 26 weeks!
While I am on a topic of respect:
Please understand I have always had an issue with what people think of my body. Please respect me and my body word things differently. As Josh says it gives me a complex. I am NORMAL size for 7 months pregnant and have gained a NORMAL amount of weight. Josh has to tell me how great I look almost everyday to make me feel better about my pregnancy body. In my head I know I am small and there are times I think my belly appears larger but Kendall can move and I look small by the end of the day. Thanks to everyone who has been considerate of my feelings! <3 yall!
While I am on a topic of respect:
Please understand I have always had an issue with what people think of my body. Please respect me and my body word things differently. As Josh says it gives me a complex. I am NORMAL size for 7 months pregnant and have gained a NORMAL amount of weight. Josh has to tell me how great I look almost everyday to make me feel better about my pregnancy body. In my head I know I am small and there are times I think my belly appears larger but Kendall can move and I look small by the end of the day. Thanks to everyone who has been considerate of my feelings! <3 yall!
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