Things are coming together...

As life seems to create a new pregnancy normal we get slammed in the face with a million things to do! Josh has to renew his dealer license and  I have to renew my massage license. We are touring High Point Regional September 18th.  We are beginning a hypnobirthing class on September 8th. Third Trimester begins on the 20th of September! Hand and Stone will be requesting more hours from me since Winston location will be opening in 16 or so days.  And my Daddy has been coming by on the weekends to help get the house ready for Kendall. We still have to take the window out between the laundry room and her room, paint etc. We have 2 baby showers scheduled. October 29th is one my parents are throwing in Mount Airy. November 5th is the Rural Hall shower and Amy and Angie are throwing it but I believe we are doing a couples shower and there will be alcohol involved and BBQ and Cornhole!!! So maybe not so showery!!! We still have to get the waterstove installed and working not to mention all the wood we need to have stacked! I think if we could hire work it still couldn't be done in time!

Thankfully, like I said before,  my parents have been helping getting the house ready and my mother has went insane with buying clothes! Kendall will definitively have enough clothes!  (She has some super cute stuff and some adorable PUMA's) Josh's mom has bought some summery clothes for Kendall later on. Josh's Dad, Step-mom and Step-sisters and Brother are pitching in for all the bedding we want for Kendall. They have told us they were ordering it soon! I am super excited for that; it seems like I am wanting to nest but feel like I can't pull anything together right now. I feel misplaced. Maybe I did misplace myself somewhere...

 Things are coming together for us but it is a hectic time for us right now. I find myself overwhelmed with things that could be done or need to be bought but I let them slide because I know my friends and family are going to take care of most things. That part is hard! I have continued buying things I know my friends and family might not buy like cloth diapers and a ring sling to die for!!! For now I guess, I will have to endure the busy September only to come to October which will mean only 8 or 10 weeks before we meet Kendall.

Yes, I do find it strange that I am now beginning to get overwhelmed. I have known for 20 plus weeks we were pregnant. But holding Amy's precious Baby Benjamin made me slap myself in the head basically and wowed me because this really is happening inside me. I cried and cried last Tuesday when I held him for the first time. I can't believe I will have small human body that is part me and part Josh to care for in just a few weeks. Someone that we both created. You go through pregnancy with this notion of I will have a baby at the end of 40 weeks but  then you hold a newborn who is your best friends baby who has been with me from the beginning of this pregnancy; those notions fade and you realize what is really growing inside of you--- Kendall Reese Ferguson is growing inside of me a part of Josh and I something we created out of love. It is simply amazing.  I love that little Benjamin so much and I can't imagine holding something I have grown from Josh and I both. It isn't like holding a puppy. It is something so amazing  I can't put it into words. This is what has me overwhelmed.

 I am growing a small human inside of me and I have  to take care of it from now till the day I die... I know I will be a great mother because I had some of the greatest motherly role models out there! (ie. my mother and Granny Wanda and Granny Penley) They each contribute something different to my parenting skills. I also know Josh will be a wonderful father because I see the way he looks at other babies now. He is different now too. He loves her so much already. He is so excited to meet her and teach her new things.

 We are both shocked we have created a beautiful baby girl that is growing inside of me and now every part of us wants her to stay put until we can get everything perfect just for her. Josh even mentioned trying to keep her inside the womb until she is 4 years old. LOL. We know that can't happen and we understand she will make her appearance when SHE is ready whether we are ready here at home or not. So I don't think we are scared to have a child I think it is the mere fact we are going from 2 people with 2 dogs and 10 chickens to 2 people +a newborn baby girl+ 2 dogs+ 10 chickens... I am sure that it just first time jitters of having a baby. I am totally in love with Kendall I love every single kick and uncomfortable rib jab she can give me and I can't wait to hold my precious Snow Bunny. By the way, we have finally come to a conclusion on a name...

Kendall Reese Ferguson

With that said, I must drift off to my crazy dreams since it is late!